sometimes i review dreams i had the night before in my early waking hours for fun. last night, i had a dream I found a phone in my room, but had no idea who it might belong to. I went through the contacts save in my phone. There were many contacts, most I did not know. It did, however, contain my number, along with both of my parents and one other person I am familiar with.
So, my point is, the more I think about it, the more I realize that all these names I was scrolling through in the phone were actually in alphabetical order. My brain put literally hundreds of names in alphabetical order just for the sake of a DREAM.
oh my goodness, i totally forgot. my blog’s third birthday was yesterday.
Sunday (12 May 2013):
sad. lonely. i wish to die so so so badly. miserable life.
I really don’t know what ‘I love you’ means. I think it means ‘don’t leave me here alone’.
written by
Neil Gaiman (Source: jayarrarr, via colourthysoul)
People will kill you over time, and how they’ll kill you is with tiny, harmless phrases, like ‘be realistic.’
written by
Dylan Moran (Source: quotethat, via bokura)
my heart is breaking because my town is getting a Victoria Secret, but it’s not going to be open until July 31stttt.
i’m so sorry everyone… i’m not feeling… (I don’t know how to finish this. I’m not feeling?? I’m all wishy-washy and yucky. how do you words). today. okay.
Tuesday:
Nothing. Existed.
written by
Jean-Paul Sartre, Nausea (via nurserywords)
so my mom just told me where i was conceived. the exact night.
i cried a little screaming.
i left my water bottle at work… ):
lolichild:
I will eat the prettiest flowers
and drink only rose water
I will snack on dandelions
and count the calories
They say you are
what you eat
I just want to be
beautiful for once
(Source: dollynymph, via weaverofstars)
my daddy is the best… he gave me money to go buy bubble tea after my last final as a reward of making it through the semester. (:
ugh i took a nap because i felt sick. now i feel worse.
i wish i could fall asleep in your arms tonight. left with the faint feeling of kisses on my forehead and big hands rubbing my back. left me drift off (i am so tired).
although, i don’t deserve such goodness. i am a wretched thing.this is how it’s supposed to be. me without you (the one that only exists in my head). you are better off not knowing me. i’ll be fine. all i need is to close my eyes and you’re there. that’s all.
sincerely yours, the most lonely girl in the world.
flirting with 12-year-old boys and making them uncomfortable. (:
